To do or not to do...

Have I really come to this point? I've always had a plan and known what it is that I wanted to do. But I guess with Life's little suprises here and there. I've lost touch with the sureness of my self. I want to return to school. Unfortunately since the finals for the classes I was going for seems to always make me sick the day before its time to take them (like literally hospital bound) I've decided after 2 years NO more of that major and I shall venture off into a new world of studies. Something that I can do at home online just to make it easier to continue participating actively in my sons life and maintain a steady job to help my boyfriend support our family. I've looked at numerous different degrees and online schools. At this point I'm leaning towards Fashion Journalism. Or maybe I just want to do journalism since I have a serious passion for writing! Who knows!? I was previously interested in interior design. But the other day I started thinking I might want to attend the local college where I live at and do animation. (I also love to draw) GAHHH!!! What a mood killer it is when your trying to come up with a decision and you have your possibilities spread out all over the place! "Shall i do this or maybe this will better suite me! No never mind I might get bored in that so lets find something fun. Wait when refering to school what is fun?" -random thoughts that popped in my head on this school/major topic. The only for sure thing I know is that in August I am returning to college.  Note to self: Please reconnect with whatever it was that made you so sure of what you wanted in life. Because the ability to not make decision I feel secure in is really taking a toll on me! I dont like this unsure you one bit! Yours Truly-Chawli.