To do or not to do...

Have I really come to this point? I've always had a plan and known what it is that I wanted to do. But I guess with Life's little suprises here and there. I've lost touch with the sureness of my self. I want to return to school. Unfortunately since the finals for the classes I was going for seems to always make me sick the day before its time to take them (like literally hospital bound) I've decided after 2 years NO more of that major and I shall venture off into a new world of studies. Something that I can do at home online just to make it easier to continue participating actively in my sons life and maintain a steady job to help my boyfriend support our family. I've looked at numerous different degrees and online schools. At this point I'm leaning towards Fashion Journalism. Or maybe I just want to do journalism since I have a serious passion for writing! Who knows!? I was previously interested in interior design. But the other day I started thinking I might want to attend the local college where I live at and do animation. (I also love to draw) GAHHH!!! What a mood killer it is when your trying to come up with a decision and you have your possibilities spread out all over the place! "Shall i do this or maybe this will better suite me! No never mind I might get bored in that so lets find something fun. Wait when refering to school what is fun?" -random thoughts that popped in my head on this school/major topic. The only for sure thing I know is that in August I am returning to college.  Note to self: Please reconnect with whatever it was that made you so sure of what you wanted in life. Because the ability to not make decision I feel secure in is really taking a toll on me! I dont like this unsure you one bit! Yours Truly-Chawli.

"The Nicest Thing"

Absolutely love this song.."I wish I was your favorite girl. 

I wish u thought I was the reason you were in the world!

I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile!"

Attempting to be a Power Ranger + Jump skip backflip combo punch kick scream = OWW mommy my arms broke!

Me- "Cay your okay. Your arm isnt broke cause if it was you would be crying."
Cay (while holding his arm tightly)- "Yes it is see look!"
(I look of course what mother wouldn't..I also attempt to "FIX" it for him by wiggling it back and forth. Hoping he drops the dramatic broken bone show.)
Cay- "Wow mommy its better!" (biggest smile ever)
So yes i have many roles as a mother and that was just Dr.Mommy to the rescue. I guess even power rangers need me too!

Me, Cay, & Shi

Top 5 lies Women tell...

Well as I mentioned in my previous video (how to escape a guy at the club) Lying appears to me to be human nature. We may "exaggerate the truth" to make a story seem more interesting or to prevent an altercation in hopes to sugar coat the "hurtful truth". Whatever the reason if your not telling the exact truth than your LYING. Get used to it! But today I have a confession, I know us lovely women have a few interesting small white lies we tell to men, in hopes to keep the peace and I'm going to expose them!

1.) I'm Not Mad At You...
Now I personally have been a very active user of this line. 8/10 times I was definitely lying. But I believe woman use this line in order to not seem like they are always nagging or simply to prevent an argument. Whatever the case or reason is, if i was you I would take in more consideration and thought when my lady says "No, I'm not mad at you."
2.)I weigh #$@!
Luckily I'm satisfied with my weight but I have encountered many conversations where ladies cant seem to be upfront truthful about their weight. Lets face it, I blame the media and guys uncontrollable love for hot woman wit fit bodies. Your not gonna want a Nikki Parker over a Stacy Dash. So excuse her insecurities she's just trying to seem attractive and not like a porky. Let her know you don't care about her weight as long as she looks attractive and keeps her health up to par.
3.) How bout you give me your number and I'll call you.
Okay listen it's hard to be mean to a guy that's actually nice and a good guy but he's just not your type. So we give the false impression like we are interested in calling you. The ugly truth:We never plan to call ever! Sorry!
4.) I've slept with "this" many guys..
Ok this is a little tricky maybe we rounded down, could of rounded up..or it could be an unintentional lie because we failed to keep good track of our "numbers". Either way i'm sure its one of these two things Either she doesn't want to seem inexperienced or she's unsure how her number will portray her to you (to be a slut or not to be? hmm..) *important this doesn't mean that all girls are lying when they give you a number!
5.) I bought it on sale!
7/10 times it wasn't on sale! We cant resist the perfect purse or pair of heels! If we come across a "must have item" our budgets may seem to be unconsidered in the situation. But we don't want you to think we are shopping out of control. So what we lied to get that amazing purse!? Get over it...or start going shopping with us! Either way you lose!

Take a break?! -really?

So yesterday I got to take a minor break off Mother duty. I still had the 1 month old but my 3 year old was staying with his Nana. So when I say minor I'm referring to less work on the parenting aspect. Felt nice, I enjoyed my time away from the house hanging with Ms.Heather. Its important to me as a mother to remember to get some "ME" time. Love my kids and my family to death, but I just need those moments where I can relax and actually have a decent in depth thought with out hearing "Mommy" or "Babe, can you do this for me". Taking a day out to just look pretty and laugh with a friend, going to a spa or get my nails done (something girly) makes me feel much better and level headed inside. Motherhood is so much of a different life concept than I expected. It's 24/7 non-stop worrying, learning, providing, trying & loving duties. With each day I hope to grow more and more into the best mother I can possibly be and still keep my sanity.

I can only be me. I hope the world is ready for me.....
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A Fellow Shout out

 

WOMAN! Woman, we've come along way. No more mandatory home shifts tending to kids & followers of Man. We have choices in life, voting rights, any career opportunity our soul desires! Woman, you've found your voice! You've come to realize the world is full of and can offer so much more. EXPLORE! EXPLORE! these numerous open doors. Fear nothing, for you can and will accomplish much when you put your heart into it. WOMAN! WOMAN! Your born powerful, intelligent, and beautiful. Smile because you can do not allow the sorrows of this cruel world to own you. Hold back from nothing chase your dreams. Woman! Dear Woman, you are...

Thoughts of Action...

  Have you ever wondered what it would be like if everywhere you went you had the ability to read peoples thoughts? How many times would you cross a "dirty" thought? Or hear something hateful? Would you cry if you walked past a poor child who only thought was how hungry he is because he has not had a good meal in days? Perhaps you would take more initiative to change the world, to help those in need, and bring peace where violence rules over the weak. Could you bare to be selfish after hearing so many minds cry of not having enough to provide for their own families while you complain and get mad because you were unable to get that $300 miscellaneous item because it was out of stock. I think knowing how the people of the world really feel through their personal thoughts would change you as a person, hopefully for the better. Causing you to understand that all of us as humans have a duty to the world and the people in it, We are no better than the next ans if you were crying because you had no where to sleep tonight would you want a helping hand? So why downplay him who has not what you have been so very blessed to have? Hopefully one of these years people wont be so obsessed with what they can get for themselves for Christmas but what they can give to make another as happy and satisfied as them. Merry Christmas World!

Guy Problems?

ME- a month after giving birth :)

no work out plan needed-AWESOME!

Love- a true hassle of life

Often we find ourselves in situations where "Love" is becoming the hassle in our life rather than creating peacefulness as we hoped it would. I see relationships as a full-time job rather your working to retain the opening moment when you realized this person is "The One" or just trying to go with the flow and see how far this companionship joyride will go. Maintaining a good healthy relationship takes work, hard work to be exact. Often I come across people when discussing their current relationship after a year or so and say that its getting boring and the other person doesn't do all the things they used to. Maybe the guy doesn't take her out as much anymore and he doesn't listen enough. Or the guy just thinks the girl has become a non stop nagging machine and nothing he does will satisfy her. Whatever the issue maybe its not that hard to overcome if the "love" for one another is there.  First step is to understand that in any conflict with your partner you have to be open minded. (This will get you very far when trying to compromise and understand another persons point of view) Also remember you don't always get an agreement sometimes you have to agree to disagree but never let an argument or conflict run through the entire night into the next day. If you can solve it the same day, then take the initiative, solve it and move on!! At the end of the day when its all said and done you might not even remember why your mad. Don't lose something that's good over something that's petty and allow your pride to get in the way. Sometimes we have to say sorry! (The outcome is highly worth it.)

Walking into 2012

          The year 2011 is coming to an end, and all I can think about is what exactly will the year of 2012 bring for the world. I know the theories of the world will end or the Masons will return to make new world order. I’ve even pondered on the fact that the climate is going to drastically switch and bring chaos to the world as we know it. Honestly though if one of these things were going to happen, what would you do? Is there even anything that can be done to stop it?

       If the world was destined to end I can be sure I’m not going to be sitting around stressing myself out about it. I’m planning on enjoying myself the most in 2012 than I have ever done any other year. Every now and then I come across a few individuals that mention there going to start going to church every day as a result of the 2012 scare. I don’t need to make a new-year resolution. (I can’t recall a time I did make one.) I don’t need to start trying to change my ways and attempt to be somebody else. Forget it, I am me. I have flaws just like everybody else. If I’m going out of this world I’d rather go out as me, not some pretend person who is running to church every day and trying to do good task to secure my place in heaven. That wasn’t me before the big scare of 2012 so why should I force myself into a molding of unfamiliarity if this is to be my last year living. Me and God have a decent relationship, could be better and maybe I’ll work on that this upcoming year but I have to make sure that my reasoning is pure at heart not for selfish unjust cause. I plan to take life one day at a time. We were already destined to die when we inhaled our first breath of oxygen. So if you are one of those many who plan on running to God now, would your reasoning be unjust.

But more importantly why let some “theory of an upcoming death” ruin your upcoming year? It’s no different than saying you can die tomorrow, of course you may die in 2012 but what if you don’t, then what! You already knew this but because a few people decided to broadcast it, it scares you and throws your entire focus on life out of place?

Dear sons,

 

I don't know what it is about you, but you are so special to me. You give me the giggles inside and happy reasons to cry. First time i laid eyes on you i'll describe it as tears of joy. Your apart of me, my beautiful creations. Your smile is my medicine it lets me know everything will be alright. My two favorite guys in the entire world!! Mommy loves you.